This article was automatically translated from the original Turkish version.
Despite everything, I drew
with unbreakable patience,
with a voice inside me that never fell silent.
I drew the landscape your eyes touched;
the gentle light that softly illuminated that scene,
the fragile hope that filtered through the darkness.
I drew the dusty roads of my childhood;
the wounds still lingering on my knees,
those small but stubborn steps I never abandoned...
As if each left a different mark within me.
Then I drew the horizon I lost myself in,
that vast world you call “life”;
a little incomplete, a little too much,
yet always real, always fragile.
I drew the weariness gathering in your eyes;
those silent screams that could not fit into the night,
those glances no one heard but that told everything...
I drew everything you devoted your life to;
the words you silenced for its sake,
the dreams you gave up,
the invisible weight you nurtured within...
And above all, I drew silence itself,
the kind that no one understands even when spoken,
the emptiness that deepens when nothing is said.
But this time I added one more thing:
the unfinished hopes,
the tomorrows yet to be lived,
and despite everything,
the possibility of beginning again...
Because I,
did not draw only what was,
but also what could be.
Aykut, Esmanur. "Çizdim." Unpublished, handwritten poem. 2026.